“I do not pray that you may be delivered from your pains…”
What? That sounds so cruel, Brother Lawrence. How can you not pray that someone
who is suffering be delivered?
I am reading “The Practice of the Presence of God” by
Brother Lawrence. He worked in the kitchen of a monastery and had very little education.
But what he did have was a profound peace in the midst of poverty, a lowly
position, and much hard work. This peace was so profound that visitors to the
monastery sought him out to learn his secret. Hence this little book of his
writings was assembled.
So this man of great peace wouldn’t pray for his friend to
be delivered from his pains… what did he pray for? “…but I pray GOD earnestly
that He would give you strength and patience to bear them as long as He
pleases. Comfort yourself with Him who holds you fastened to the cross: He will
loose you when He thinks fit.” He continues that “men of the world” who consider
sickness and pain as just a part of living, and “not as a favour from GOD… find
nothing in it but grief and distress. But those who consider sickness as coming
from the hand of GOD, as the effects of His mercy, and the means which He
employs for their salvation, commonly find in it great sweetness and sensible
consolation… GOD is often (in some sense) nearer to us and more effectually
present with us, in sickness than in health.”
That speaks to my soul. I have experienced that amazing
sweetness of the nearness of God during times of unimaginable grief and pain.
It’s hard to describe how you can hurt so badly and yet experience the presence
of God so sweetly at the same time. God knows that the pain you are suffering
through is unbearable. By the way, despite what many will tell you during times
of grief and pain, God DOES give you more than you can bear! But He does not
make you bear it alone. He uses it to help you see your utter dependence on
Him.
So, if you’re a friend of mine, I’m sorry, but I won’t be
praying for you to be instantly delivered from any pain and suffering. But I
will be praying for God’s profound peace and the sweetness of His amazing
presence to carry you through until He has accomplished all that He wants to
accomplish in you. God wants so much more for you than your present comfort.
Brother Lawrence continues, “[God] often sends diseases of
the body, to cure those of the soul. Comfort yourself with the sovereign
Physician both of soul and body." And that is my Unswerving Hope.
Ugh....Painfully sweet words. Love you.
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